OMC #15

"And then I made myself these tickets, ya know, and I learned from them, it helped a lot ..." Michelle kept talking, talking, she didn't even notice I didn't hear what she said.

My thoughts were still in the woods, with Jake.
"Caro?" Someone - I guessed it was Michelle - waved a hand before my eyes. "Do you hear me at all?"

In fact, I listened to her talk with one ear. "Huh?" I said, accidentally.
"Yeah, that's what I thought ..." Michelle muttered to herself, "I hoped that at least after when you two started dating, you would be more normal. No, you're still thinking about him. Jesus Christ!"

"Micha, have you ever been in love?" Cassie said suddenly, preventing further mutters from Michelle, and my answer as well.
"No, and not going to be," said Micha too fast and too sharp.

"And we pretend there's no Craig, right?" Chan said, continuing the topic, so I was grateful to her.
At least Chantal knows how I feel =)

Michelle didn't like neither this topic nor that it was directed to her. "I didn't like him at all!"
"Mhm, mhm," we all muttered secretly.

Strangely, Michelle didn't even start to disprove this, she just sat there and stared the table.
I knew that she still liked Craig...

"Well, Micha, no offense now," I said comfortingly.
And this time she really melted. Forgetting her normal being and other things, she sank on my shoulder.

"Is it like this predictable?" she asked silently, but we knew that question was directed to all of us.
"Well, you are an easier form of Caro," explained Alasia.

I chuckled at this comparing. Because of course she was right.
"Judas! I am?"

"She wanted to say that you don't babble about Jason so much," I explained.
"Neither ..." Cassie's mouth opened, but I quickly shook my head. I knew that Michelle should not have to know about 'the another'.

Fortunately, she was too obsessed with her problem, so she didn't notice. Ultimately, we had 15 minutes to our math test.
I chose to change the subject. "Did you study math? Don't answer it, Chan." I smiled at my girl friend.

"Yes, of course," She muttered, pretending to be offended.
"Wait a minute." I told Alasia, who had already opened her mouth, "Actually, I wish you would have studied. Who will help me then?"

I wasn't disturbed with the fact that our math teacher, Mr. Cobe, was in the class. He knew perfectly that the ones that sit in the first seats don't crib. And to the ones that sit in the last seats, he always says: "You will need it, not me.", which was, after all, true.

It brought Chan back from pretended nettled-being to happiness (which was not pretended) that was always with her.
And why she should not be happy?

"But," I raised my finger up. "I broke in on your talk."
"Well, there's not much to say. I went over formulas and this it was." said Michelle.

Alasia and Cassie were more crammer - they even did some exercises. So I was confident that they will get fives.
Always got.

***

This test was really easy..
We left the class, discussing the answers and the solutions when someone pulled me aside at the door. At first, I thought it's Jason, but I lost my bet, because Jake was standing in front of me.

"Hey,"
"Hey," I said, arranging my blouse, which had risen because of sudden inversion.

"What are you doing Saturday?" he asked suddenly.
"I have no plans yet..." I narrowed my eyes. "Why?"

"I have a party at my place..." He gave me the time to digest. "Interested?"
I thought for a moment. "Who else is coming?"

"This is a class party, so the most,"
"You've told them?" I asked, pointing at my girl friends.

"I wanted to tell you first, so you could ask them..."
I had decided. "It looks exciting, will be there,"

"Great," Jake showed perhaps too much enthusiasm, but I decided not to notice.
I winked. 'We're coming, I promise! "

***

"What did he want?" Alasia examined immediately, when I reached English class.
They overthink again.

"Party on Saturday, at Jake's place," I said raggedly.
"And since when do you get a special invitation?" Michelle asked, suspiciously.

I shrugged my shoulders. "I have no idea ... Well, what do you think?" I wanted to know their opinion faster, because I started to like parties lately and wanted to attend as much as possible.

"I'm going," said Alasia immediately.
Smiled at her. Sure she does.

"Me, too," Cassie was also in.
"Chan?"

"I doubt..."
"Oh, c'mon. You can attend at least one party?"

"What the hell will I do there? Look, how people get drunk and begin to behave outrageously? Or do drugs and smoke water pipe? Nonsense."
I rolled my eyes. Normal Chantal. Of course. What was I thinking about?

"Michelle?" Cassie said.
Michelle was thinking of something very intensely. I haven't seen her like this.

"We have an exam after all," she said finally.
"Maybe you should study earlier?" I suggested, even though I had to remind myself, that we have an exam on Tuesday. Clearly, we have two days to study, why to panic? "That's on Tuesday. You have two days."

"I don't know ..."
"Where do Jake live at all?" Alasia said.

"Not far from me," I said quickly, only realizing later how it sounded.
"And whence do you know?" Cassie asked, starting laughs.

"Facebook?" I suggested randomly. I really hope they are not stalkers.
"Haven't noticed,"'

Was lucky
"Well, what do you think then?" I asked again, starting to bounce around them.

"Some are really hyperactive." Analeigh said, joining the convo, "What's up?"
"Talking about Jake party,"

"Nah, I just wanted to tell you. How do you already know?"
"Jake told,"

"Ookkaayy," dragged Analeigh.
"You're coming, right?" I demanded a response from her, too.

"Of course! Who else will make the food?" Analeigh said thoughtfully, and with her usual enthusiasm.
"Yeah, sure," I agreed with her.

OMC #14: Dogs Unleashed

The forest was full of different rustles as usually, and of course of the secrets. I walked in silence, listening to music with headphones - I had grabbed my mp3 at the last moment. I usually don'tt go anywhere without it.

Evanescence - Haunted. A lil' bit creepy for such a trip.
I pushed the button, and I could hear Tokio Hotel's "Dogs Unleashed".
It was really better right now. If being honest .. the best =)

"Don't wanna run on your command
Don't wanna keep on comin' back
Don't wanna swallow all your lies
Wanna feel alive   

Don't wanna hold on to your truth
Don't wanna keep on lovin' you
Don't wanna look through jaded eyes
Wanna feel alive

We are dogs unleashed
You and I
We are dogs unleashed
You and I

We are dogs unleashed
Out of control
Full of dreams
Nobody knows  

Unleashed  
Dyin' to escape
We don't wanna suffocate

We are dogs unleashed
We are dogs unleashed
We are dogs unleashed

Tonight
Tonight

We gonna scratch
We gonna bite
We turn your game into a fight  

We're howlin' T
o the moon at night
Tonight

We are dogs unleashed
You and I
We are dogs unleashed
You and I  

Unleashed  
Dyin' to escape
We don't wanna suffocate

We are dogs unleashed
We are dogs unleashed
We are dogs unleashed  

Touch me
Treat me
Love me
Feed me  

Touch me
Treat me
Love me
Feed me 

Touch me
Treat me
Love me
Feed me 

Tonight

We are dogs unleashed
We are dogs unleashed
Full of dreams
Nobody knows   

Unleashed 
Dyin' to escape
We don't wanna suffocate 

We are dogs unleashed
We are dogs unleashed
We are dogs unleashed

Tonight
Tonight"


 "Huh, you sing quite well," I heard a few seconds after the little break, when the mp3changes the song.
I flinched, turning myself around and ...

"Oh," I put some hear behind the ear. "Hey .. Jake. You're here .. too?" I was surprised. Probably nicely.
"Yeah, I thought to get out,"

"And how often do you think .. to get out here?" I asked, while observing his approach.
"Depends." he said mysteriously, "And you?"

I chewed lip. "If I want to?"
What's wrong with me? I felt so weird. This is just .. Jake. Why do I feel like an animal in a corner?

"Come," Jake waved his hand around the forest. "Let's go for a walk."
I suppressed my desire to escape from him as far away as possible and followed.

Keep calm, it's just Jake. Yes, you liked him, but now you have Jason, who you have always loved. And no, Jake isn't in your heart no longer the same way he used to be. Forget it all.

"So." Jake began. I found that it differs a lot from his normal being, but is still prone to start a conversation. "What do you do in the woods?"
"I just wanted to walk," I said curtly, turning the headphone's cord around the mp3. I still didn't know how I should behaved then.

"And how often do you .. go for a walk? In this dark mysterious place such as Goolengook?"
I shrugged my shoulders, rejoicing secretly. So I'm not the only one who thinks that forests are mysterious? Good. "I love the woods,"

Jake nodded. I guessed, for himself.
Now it was my turn to ask. "And you?"

"Well." Jake hesitated. This is something new. "Somehow I had a feeling today that I have come here .. and I don't regret it."
He said it with such enthusiasm that I blushed and turned aside. "Feeling?"

"Well, yes. You know, I studied physics and then came to an idea to go for a walk."
"But it was a thought then,"

"No," Jake shook his head. "This was too compelling to be a just an thought. I was feeling at times that someone orders me to go."
"Interesting," I could only say. Consistent idea? Hmm.

"But well, it seems, this 'someone' wanted me to be lucky today ..."
I winced, but Jake continued his story, so didn't notice.

"...this 'someone' wanted me to be lucky today..."," ... it seems, this 'someone' is keeping a good future for me... " No! It is simply not possible. How..? I ... "I'm sorry?"
I think about it later.

"Caro .. Caroline." Jake said softly and craned to my hair. I was completely frozen with surprise. "You should pay more attention. Only a leaf." He waved it in front of me.

A leaf. Yes, the leaf. And I was thinking .. Think less. The boy smiled slyly. "Leaf. Of course. Sorry, I was in my mind." Then I grimaced, thinking how it had sounded.

Did I really just tell Jake that I was in my mind? You can understand it so differently... and surely he thinks now that I'm strange and ...

"It's okay." Jake said for my amazement, "It happens to everyone."
"Everyone?" I was surprised. Once again, "To you, too?"

"Of course. Haven't you noticed then?"

* Actually, I had. Jake could just lie on the bench, as did many other boys at our school, but his look was somewhere farther than the screen of his phone. He could still watch it, but obviously wandered somewhere else. Or at least to me clearly. The others simply didn't care, where the others are, if they just listen to them.



For example, Michelle haven't ever noticed what someone said or did or so on. Unlike me. I could listen to what others were talking about, notice how someone wants to play a prank and this stuff.

But wait a sec. Currently I'm in the woods. And Jake is waiting for my response.*
"I do not know." I tried to sound as indifferently as possivle, "I notice different things."

Was lucky, I guess.
"For example?"

Or maybe not really.
"Many are in their minds." I replied simply, "I don't observing everyone, after all."

So, very good. Let him think I don't watch him. Wait, I don't actually.. Okay, let him think that I do not care. Yes, this is the best option.

Jake snorted. "Well, of course,"
Then one more question came into my mind. "Wait a minute .. why are you here?"

"I came for a walk, I told you," Jake couldn't understand.
"I mean right here .. You don't live here .. or do you?"

To this day, I hadn't actuallt thought about where Jake lives.
"There," he pointed to the left of my house, "Forest Road 17"

I gagged. "You live in just 5 houses from me. My house number is 7."
"7 .. hmm, lucky number," Jake muttered to himself.

I raised eyebrow but said nothing.
Jake went on with talking. "We're attending one class for almost half year and still don't know?"

I shrugged my shoulders. "We just haven't talked so much,"
"Perhaps we should start?" Jake suggested.

I did liked this idea. "I'm in," I smiled to Jake.
"Then it is great"

He wanted to add something else, but his phone ringing interrupted our conversations.
"Yes? - No. - At home. - What, right now? - Okay, I'm coming." At the end he was already really growling.

He angrily pushed the red button on his LG.
"Problems?" I asked timidly.

"Don't be a busybody!" Jake yelled at me, so I took a step back. Then, realizing his mistake, he said: "Sorry, they drive me mad. Friends?" He extended his little finger towards me.

I looked at him fearfully. I didn't even bother myself asking who were 'they'.
"I'm not going to hurt you," the boy promised.

I slowly nodded, accepting this, because I was still scared of his abruptness , but I still took his little finger with mine. "Friends," I muttered as a sign of consent.

He smiled at me. "I must go now. Bye."
And then he started running to the houses.

Strange.
I looked at the phone clock. It showed six already.
Well, I should go home.

***

Family still wasn't at home - probably went to Grandma and Grandpa's.
In fact, I enjoyed it better this way. I can be in peace, and .. talk to Jason, who wrote to msn.

"Hey,"
"Yo,"

"What are you doing too?"
"I learned physics, math, went to the forest for a walk ..." Was it important enough to tell him?

"Nice,"
"You?"

"Work, physics, some homework. No more news?"
Yes. "No,"

I didn't tell Jason about Jake. First of all, we just met and talked in the woods.
And my heart was beating wildly as before with Jason. NO.

Secondly, Jason still didn't fulfilled his promise. Now, when he will, we'll see.
Suddenly I lost the will to talk to anyone, even Jason. I wanted to go to the living room and watch some movies.

"Um, I gotta go now ..  Mom needs some help in the kitchen =)" I was happy that I am at home now and talk to him on msn. So it was easier to lie.
 
Again, I'm using his phrases.
":( Well, sad. Let's talk later?"

":( Sure :)"
"Great,"

"Bye .. love :*"
"I caught it and put in my pocket ;) Bye, kitty, I'm already missing you."

And he called me kitty again. Well, some people just call me "Felis" now, but he ..
* Once I chose this name on Latin, because in other languages they sound so stupid and ordinary. Kitties, pussycats, whatever else. Ooh. Felis, on the other hand, was peculiar enough .*

I made a mint tea and curled myself on the sofa. Mint tea soothed me, chasing away fears and anxieties and I could enjoy "Beastly".

OMC #13: Mistique

 There was nicely dark outside. The moon that shone in the sky, was quietly transforming a full month.

* I have always liked the Moon. Such a beautiful shiny disc, which was full of secrets ... I was particularly fascinated with the full moon. As I read different books, I learned that the most powerful moon phase is full  moon, and in various books, it was associated with mysticism, unfortunately, mostly with evil.

For example witches and other negative creatures become  very powerful at this time and so on. Wolves werewolves, vampires, mermaids (H2O - Just Add Water), angels, fairies. Although I have never understood why witches, werewolves and vampires were listed as negative and cruel characters. Or fallen angels and demons. No, I wasn't a satanist or anything, but just .. for example, my mother was categorically opposed to my interests of 'black powers'.

Yes, I love werewolves and fallen angels .. perhaps even demons. No, not them, though. Oh yeah, when I brought home the book "Prom Nights from Hell", she went all crazy and told me to take the book back. Of course I didn't do it, and 'hell' was only in Stephenie Meyer's story "Hell on Earth", so ... Moreover, it was a good book.

 But back to the topic. Witches, werewolves, wolves, fairies, vampires, mermaids, angels, gothic at all, etc. I liked all of it. And my mother missed the old me. An ordinary girl with her ordinary interests and problems. Dresses, dance, boys etc. But this is no longer for me. I'd changed .. and I even knew why. No, rather when.

I'd changed after falling in love with Jason. His secrecy, whom no one - not even her best friends, including Zack - didn't know too much, who had his unique interests, who was just a secret. A big secret. I knew what others thought of him. They all felt some kind of .. awe or something before him, because he was different. And he really was.*

"Don't go, Angel," I asked my cat who wanted to go back into the room.
Apparently she understood, as she cuddled up on my lap, and went back to sleep again.
I looked in the sky again. There was only moon, no stars.

* However, Jason had a strong position in the class. He was the one who was asked to draw posters or who was invited to the school bands. But he was already in a band. "Moonwalk". How ironic.

Jason was also asked to make sketches for our class blog that Aaron - class IT specialist - took successfully over the computer.

Wait a minute. When I once again began to think about Jason? I thought, I was thinking about month and mythical things and .. Jason now. Interesting.*

I looked at my watch.
01:28. I should probably go to sleep, tomorrow is Sunday and homework -.-

I went back inside with Angel, letting her on the floor as soon as she wanted to go to her bed. I grabbed my nightgown and went to the bathroom.

***

Sunday.
Once again, a cold November day, it was raining outside. This year weather in November changed a lot. One time it was 12 that you could go out with warmer sweater, then again 5 and you had to put on the coat and boots. Today, however, I didn't think about going out. If so, for just a little bit, because today I had to do my homework. Parents went with my little brother to his dance competitions.

I made myself hot chocolate and took some muffins from the kitchen, so studying mathematics and physics would be nicer.

* Actually, I really liked math, but I didn't like learning all these formulas for test. Physics, on the other hand .. to put it mildly I didn't like it. And now we had a week after the physical exam.
Brr ...

Although, in fact, I didn't worry. I felt quite okay. No more shaking, sleepless nights.
Everything will be good.

In the end of the year there will be only Math exam, after that Chemistry, and then you could choose by yourself what you want.

It was indeed strange that the exam was in half of the year, but we first started studying for the last two quarters of last year, so it was almost the same as starting preparing at the beginning of school year and take an exam at the end.

Which means that it doesn't matter.
"ISO processes. Ooh."

***

Strangely I even could study for really long time. I was proud of myself.
I looked out - the rain had stopped, but the sun was still behind the clouds. Nevertheless, I felt an urgent yen to go for a walk.

I put on warmer clothes: black jeans, black top, dark gray warmer sweater, gray hat and blue boots.
I looked at myself in the mirror. It looks gothic. But I wasn't about changing anything - I'm going to forest anyway.

OMC #12: Secrets

"What kind of question is that?" He frowned more.
"Just a normal question,"

"No. It's suspicious."
I rolled my eyes. "It would be normal if you were normal. But you're not."

He didn't argued against that.
Of course not. How many times had he told me that? I half-smiled bitterly at own question.

"What do you want to know?"
"Everything," I said without thinking.

"'Everything' is a wide term,"
"I want to know what did you do in the meanwhile, why I had to wait, all these secrets, and so on." I explained as I was thinking about this for a long time.

"Caro ..." he started, annoyed a bit.
"Please?" I begged then. My confidence began to disappear, because Jason's voice just sounded so confident.
 
As if he took away my confidence ...
"I can't,"
"Why?"

"Because it is so .. incomprehensible for you. You just can't understand it."
"Maybe I can decide by myself what I do understand and what don't?"

"No, this is the point. It's too hard."
"Jason ..."

"Please?" He eyed me with his lovely eyes.
"Oh,"

"Besides, we all have secrets, don't we?"
I thought for a moment. "At least I don't hide anything from you that wake you up at night or just torture you,"

"My secrets torture and wake you up?"
"Yes," I didn't think that his secrets actually didn't let me sleep instead of waking me up, as I said. It didn't make difference.

"You know. I think I know what is the thing. I just haven't got into the way of not being alone anymore. Alone with my secrets. That I have you now. "He pulled me closer to him. "I promise that I will get myself together and tell you. But not now, not at the moment. A little later on. "

"Promise?" I looked him in the eye again, making sure if he was lying.
"Yes. I wouldn't lie to you. "

"Then it's good,"
Jason pulled me to his lap. "The good thing is rather that we are together now,"

"You think so?"
"I'm all too sure,"

And, to make it sure, he kissed me.
I was happy that today I was wearing jeans, because .. Well, the way I was sitting on Jason's lap .. skirt .. yeah.

* But, after all, I have thought about it so much. But wondered if only when there was nothing between us. Today, everything was different. Today, everything was real .*

"Mmhh ... I could sit like this forever, " whispered Jason against my lips with pleasure.
"I know. So do I. " I whispered in response and started putting my head upon his breast. But he pushed it back, kissing again and again.

After a few moments we were lying side by side on rocks, tight.
* Who could even think that my quiet Jason would be really .. lovable? I really didn't find a better word for it.*

"You took it all so easyly ..." Jason mused, raising once again the subject of the former.
"Do I have any choice?" I said with little irritation.

The boy raised his hand, patting gently my cheek. "I promise to tell you everything. As soon as I can."
"When?" I didn't give in.

"Does it really mean so much to you?"
"I just .. can't still live in ignorance. I had to do this already long enough. Why should I still suffer? "

I knew that it will make Jason think. Ultimately, anyone actually liked feeling guilty. But I also knew that I shouldn't affect him this way. This was .. selfish and stuff. Not nice.

Jason was silent. His hand stopped on cheek, then he took it away.
I felt like shit now. "I'm sorry," I whispered, even though I knew how stupid it sounds.

Well, you know. First of all I insisted on giving me explanations and make him feel guilty, then start excusing for my behavior. I'm brainless!

Jason rose to sit, and I followed him. I reached over to his shoulder.
"I'm sorry." I said louder now, "I shouldn't have raise this topic again, neither make you feel guilty because of not telling me."

Jason still remained silent, watching the darkness. Twilight was smoothly transferred to darkness.
The boy started to say something, but my "Strange" stopped him.

"Oh .. Shit, "
I answered the call. "Yes?" I said, bored.

"Are you going to spend another night somewhere else?"
"Mom, I'm with Jason,"

"Caroline!"
"We don't do anything like you may think,"

"Well, I don't know for sure,"
"Look, honestly, I'm coming home soon. We are .. in Vapiano. "

"Eh .. okay. But now you won't go anywhere for whole week. It's school at the moment, btw. "
"Okay, okay. Bye. "I rolled my eyes.

Without waiting for her answer, I pressed the red button. Then lapsed back into the stone, which had now turned cold. But I didn't care. Besides, my long sweater protected my back from cold.

I closed my eyes. When I opened them again, Jason was over me and looked me in the eye closely.
"Problems?"

I shrugged my shoulders indifferently. In fact, I was indifferent. "I can't go out at night now because of yesterday and today,"
"I suppose we should use the current wisdomly,"

His 'wisdom' we meant more kissing.
* Not that I didnät like it. No, it was so wonderful. After all, now I was able to fulfill the desires I waited for two years. Just .. I didn't think it would be that easy. That Jason by himself would kiss me all the time and care so much and so on. It made me really happy.*

I smiled against his lips as we once again finished. "It would have been all the time like this ..."
"It would have been ..." he agreed.

I sighed heavily when my mother's command came to mind again. "I have to ..."
He pressed his finger to my lips. "I know"

The boy stood up and instead of helping me up, he took me in his hands.
"Oh, I'm heavt, after all. Put me down! "

"No, I want to carry you," he said, ignoring my squirming.
"Okay, okay," I agreed because it was impossible to get out of his grip.

There was only 10 minutes driving, so I got home too soon.
I kissed Jason one more time in hurry, and ran along the path to my home.

There was my mother, with who I had a quarrel at first, because I was out too long again, but she still trusted Jason, so she stopped scolding me.

I grabbed a cheesecake from the kitchen, as I had last eaten after the drive. Then I headed to my room where I took Angel in my hand and went out to get some fresh air.

OMC #11: Who are You, My Love?

"It seems to be pretty cool,"
"It is. That's why I do it."

"Yeah. Maybe I should try, too."
"Want to mimic me, yeah?" I asked, obviously. joking

"Hah, who talks about mimicing ..." He reminded me.
I blushed and turned my head. Yes, of course.

"Hey," Jason craned to me, "I was only joking."
I looked at him, so he could put a hand back on the steering wheel. "I know"

He smiled at me and looked back on the road.
We didn't have a long drive, but I still managed to bury in thought.

Why do I deserve this? Me who even "left" Jason for a while. And now he comes and .. says that he really wants me. And he even doesn't need time or anything. And I don't even have to think anymore what was wrong with him. Because he's a absolutely normal now. Not some kindof supernatural , as I thought for some time.

* The thing was that I just read "Twilight" and "Hush, hush" and "Wicked Lovely" and whatever else from all this fantasy things, and sometimes I got lost between reality and imaginary world - although I still believe in all sorts of mythical things - and I thought that perhaps Jason has some kind of secret, too - aka he is a vampire or something. It sounds wildly, I know - and because of that he holds the distance between us. However, he wasn't any of that.*

Though, I still don't know many things about him. Of course, the usual things, like .. favorite ice cream and stuff, but I don't know who he really is. He hasn't told me the real reason why I had to wait. For example. what he did at that time and so. After all, I would like to know so much .. but this guy is just such a mystery.

My thoughts traveled back to mysticism. Even Edward, and Patch, and other characters told their loved ones who they are and so on. Okay, Jason does not really love me .. yet. Yeah, I had to add it. But still .. it was so easy between them. Bella quickly understood Edward's nature. Elena Stefan's one. Nora .. Well, it took longer for her . But they knew. And I don't.

"Caro-cat, what are you thinking about?"
Fucking Edward Cullen. Oh, go away, Twilight-mania. "Eh .. nothing," I tried to quit the topic.

"Nah, tell me. It's so boring to drive." asked Jason.
Well, you wanted it. "Stop," I commanded.

"What?" He didn't get it.
Well, we were still on the forest road. "I want to go to the forest for a walk. Stop, please." I tried to talk to him softer.

"Uh .. okay?" Jason was still surprised, but complied with my request.
Fortunately, it was a quiet forest road, where he could park the car.

"What now?"He asked as I slipped out was of the car quickly.
"Come," I called him to follow me, moving very determinedly into the forest.

Of course, determinedly. I knew beach and forest too well.
"Caro, maybe you tell me what's going on?" I heard Jason's steps behind me, though his voice was full of doubt and surprise.

I guess I would be surprised as well. "Don't ask me anything. Just come." I told him.
We remained silent. The sun began to go down, and twilight descended to the forest.

* Normally, I wouldn't be here.I adored  nature, especially the sea and the forest, but I didn't know all the secrets and didn't dare to go for a walk to the forest after dusk, though home and the city were quite near. I didn't trust them completely, I may say.*

"Caro?" Jason was still confused.
"We got here," I whispered. I love this place. Here were all so nice and mossy. And the old trees, and at all .. beautiful.

Jason looked around doubtfully. "How often do you .. go for a walk .. to these places?"
"If I feel like this," I replied.

The boy walked to me and stood before me. "You want to explain what's going on?"
I sat on the rock and patted it, suggesting that he should sit next to me.

"Tell me," he commanded.

I snorted in my head. Will he so intrusive after my question as well? I knew the answer. Of course not. But is it worth it to ask then? I don't even know how he reacts. However, this response was also determined. It's all decided.
*Strange to think that I decided it just in 20-minute drive time. But now my life is unpredictable.*

"Caroline?" Jason was obviously upset by my silence and secrecy.
"All right. You really want to know? Okay. Just answer my question." Then I fell silent, waiting for his reaction.

He frowned at my firmness, but still said: "Ask,"
I looked deep into his eyes. Those nice warm brown eyes, which I always liked. "All right. If you are so confident about this, then..."

"I am, Caro, I am," I felt that his voice was now filled with conspicuous anger.
I sighed for the last time. "Who are you, Jason? Who you really are?"

***

The place Caro and Jason was in the forest

OMC #10: Drive

"Really?""Yep," 
"You're kidding me,""No!" 
"Yes, you are,""C'mon, Jason, why is it weird for you?" 
"You and motorcycles .. do not go together? ""Nah, why not?" 
"Well, maybe because when we had this MSN discussion, then you didn't know almost anything about motorcycles,""Maybe just because this I started studying it?" 
He thought about my words. "But, really?""Well, of course, that was not an immediate desicion ... I wanted a long time to study how to drive a motorcycle, and finally I had the opportunity to learn. " 
"Quite interesting,""Maybe you want to try as well?" 
"I do not know .. in my opinion, the guy should drive his girl, not the other way, ""Ah, this is a typical stereotype. Besides, you have other talents. Think about how well you play the guitar. " 
"Teacher said, I totally miss the mark,""For me, not at all. Moreover, can you play the drums and piano. And although you miss the mark in teacher's opinion, it's perfect for me. " 
"Thanks,""And I'm not mentioning your Esperanto and drawing skills," 
"Since what we're talking about me?""I do not know," I began to laugh. 
* After the party at Alasia's place I had only an hour to get home and then motorcycle course. As Jason didn't know this yet - c'mon, we were dating for only a week - I decided to take him with me. But he couldn't understand how I and motorcycles could fit together. Maybe I'm a tomboy? * 
"Anyways. Tell me about it." he said, turning his head back to the road.
 * Jason was driving the car at the moment as he offered to take me to the place. How sweet from him.*"Well, I started in the summer, apart from working," 
"You went to work?""Yep, Deja Vu Lounge," 
"Interesting,""Very. So. I wanted a long time to drive a motorcycle, but the parents were against it because, you know, after these motorcycle accidents .. there are little chances to  ... stay alive. But we finally got together. Besides, I said that at the beginning I will pay for it by myself, so at least they didn'tt have to worry about that. And so it began. " 
"So now you're really in motochick?""Jason!" kicked him gently on the shoulder, laughing. 
"But you put this signature to your picture on FB,""I know, I know," 
"Here?""Yes, turn right,"
***
"Well, hello, hello," said my instructor, Mr. Cole."Hello," 
"I see that brought us the spectators," he pointed at Jason."Yes, that's my boyfriend Jason. And this is my instructor, Mr. Cole." 
They shook hands."So." Cole said, "Today you have some practice." 
I nodded lovely. "Yes,""Well, get ready then," 
I went to the locker room, where I put on a jacket, pants, boots and gloves. I put on a helmet just before the drive. 
"Wow," said Jason, when I come out fully dressed, "you look like a Charlie's Angel or something."Cole laughed. "It's kind of he sees you for the first time," 
I blushed. "Well, sure. I want to drive already." Jason gave m a kiss on the cheek, and my lesson could begin.

***

Caroline's motorcycle

"Отрой моё сердце" järelsõna

Ma ise ka ei usu, et sain "Открой моё сердце"ga nii kiiresti hakkama. See on mu kõige pikem, parem (minu arust vähemalt) ja lemmikum järjejutt. Põhjus lihtne - jutt on inspireeritud mu enda elust.

Tähendab, see on minu vaatepunkt sellest, mis tegelikult toimub. Jasoni saladuslikkus ja veel mõned asjad (mõtlen antud hetkel päriselu Jasonit). Nii palju siis inspiratsioonist. A, pealkiri tuli ühest laulust, mis mingi hetk mu lemmik oli (viimases peatükis sõnad, kui keegi tahab)

Soundtrack

Tokio Hotel ja Винтаж põhiliselt. Lisaks üksikud lood: Полина Гагарина & Ирина Дубцова, Китай, Сергей Лазарев, Vanilla Ninja, Глюкоза, Vivien O'Hara & Adrian Sana, Inna, Хаки, Howard Shore, Николь

Nimed

Nimedest seekord nii palju, et need tulid suhteliselt lambist. Inimeste kohta ütlen nii palju, et mul tuli tahtmine kasutada selles järjekas scenestereid ning lisaks ka vendasid Kaulitze :D

Tänusõnad

Oi, ma olen nii õnnelik, et olen nii palju positiivset tagasisidet saanud selle järjeka kohta. Ja nii paljud loevad seda! SUUR AITÄH KÕIGILE ja eks ma siis proovin teid endiselt rõõmustada oma loominguga :)

Lõppsõna/seletus

Nagu lubatudki (eelmise jutu lõpus), ütlen, mis selle järjeka puhul siis nii erilist oli. See jutt oli minu vaatenurk/pakkumine/arvamus, mis tegelikult toimub aka miks päriselu Jason on nii saladuslik ja värki (nagu ma eelnevalt mainisingi). Suht lõbus oleks, kui ma midagi täppi ka paneks :D Kuigi maffia oleks liiga .. ekstreemne ehk?

Alguses ma ei arvanud üldse, et mingid maffiavärgid üldse sisse tulevad. Tähendab, ma teadsin, kuhu ma sellega jõuda tahan ja mis toimub ja et midagi saladuslikku peab siin olema. Ning kriminaalset. Kuid maffia? See oli hetkeidee, mille ma kohe ka ära kasutasin. Ehk siis ma jõudsin ideeni alles 5 peatükki enne lõppu :D

Ning siis veel seda ka, et ma alguses arvasin, et panen rohkem Caro 'ootamisaega' sisse, aga siis otsustasin, et sellest tuleb hoopis mu järgmine jutt! See siis sellest, kuidas Caro armus Jasonisse, nende 'suhtest', Jake'ist ja nii edasi. Ning vot seal tuleb juba päris palju päriselu sisse (muutustega muidugi, sest päriselu Zack oleks väga õnnelik, kui tema oletus saaks tõeks. A, Zacki terrorist ka siis veidi rohkem juttu).

Lisaks ka mõned lahtised otsad sellest jutust, millest ehk kõik aru ei saanud. Võin isegi kindla peatüki numbri "Открой моё сердце"st, kus seda minevikuasja kasutati. Vot.

A, tahaksin veel lisada, et see pole võib-olla ainuke jutt, mida ma kirjutama hakkan - mul on praegu veidi ideid ka veel kolmele jutule (pealkirjad võiks neil olla midagi sellist - "Город в тумане" (ehk linn udus), "Armudes mängurisse" ja varem inglise keeles alustatud, praegu katkestatud "Ex omnibus partibus relucet totum" (iga osa peegeldab tervikut)), kuid kuna nende jaoks pole praegu piisavalt ideid, siis nende avaldamisaeg venib teadmata hetkeni. (Aga et mulle võib lambist inspiratsioonilaine peale tulla, siis miski pole võimatu) Kuna uue jutu jaoks pole mul nii palju ideid vaja (vaid piisavalt muuta päriselus juhtunud situatsioone), siis võib loota, et üks neist kolmest võib isegi paralleelselt käiku minna (tõenäoliselt "Город в тумане").

Aga ehk siis väike tutvustus, mida neist juttudes oodata on.

Город в тумане - jutt tüdrukust nimega Elektra, kelle vanemad surid õnnetuses/tapeti, kui ta väike oli, ning kes 16-/17-aastaselt kolib kokku oma parima sõbra Sethiga. Kellel on aga tunded tüdruku vastu (ja nagu hiljem välja tuleb, siis kehtib sama ka Elektra kohta ;D). Ning siis tuleb veel ära märkida, et Elektra on feik goot, Seth aga scenester (tänapäeval rohkem tuntud kui emo, aga mina keeldun kategooriliselt kasutamast valet väljendit).

Armudes mängurisse - see on praegu täiesti lahtine, suhteliselt ilma mõteteta, aga küll sealt midagi arenema hakkab, kui mõtlema hakata.

Ex omnibus partibus relucet totum - tõenäoliselt kaldub veidi kõrvale esialgsest plaanist (Savannah ja Jasmine olid parimad sõbrannad päevani, mil Jasmine'i vanemad mõrvati ja ta kolis oma tädi juurde New Yorki, samal ajal kui Savannah jäi Las Vegasesse. 16-aastaselt aga hakkavad neil ilmnema sarnased võimed - telekinees, meelteväline taju ja bla-bla-bla). Igatahes, selle kohta ma ka suht ei oska midagi öelda.

Kõigepealt alustan eellooga "Открой моё сердце"le. Esialgseks pealkirjaks pakun "Одиночество любви" (tõlgiks seda umbes nagu armastuse üksildus või üksik armastus?), aga ootan teie pakkumisi. Mõelge lihtsalt sellele, kuidas te armute kellessegi, olete armunud temasse väga pikka aega (antud juhul 2 aastat), vahepeal ta näitab mingeid märke, kuid siis jällegi tundub, et te ei meeldi talle... - ühesõnaga midagi ühepoolse armastuse sarnast.

Nii et ootan pakkumisi.

Ja veel kord üks suur AITÄH kõigile, kes loevad ja hindavad ja lihtsalt naudivad mu teoseid :)

Love ya (L)